I'm in a rut. For weeks, now, after work every night I come downstairs to eat dinner with Jeremy -- and I can't get off my butt again. We usually end up watching a couple of episodes of something on Netflix (Doctor Who is our latest series), and then I go to bed around 9:45 and read for an hour.
I'm being boring. I have a million ideas for fun projects, but once my butt hits the couch, all my motivation drains.
I signed up for this free video series from one of my favorite artists, SARK. I have been watching bits and pieces as I work over the last few days, and her message drove this home even more: It's time to get off my butt.
It's time to paint. Explore. Try a new restaurant. Catch up with an old friend. Write something I'm not getting paid for.
It felt SO GOOD this past Saturday to be out of the house all day and around people I don't see every day.
I'm going to a women's retreat in Breckenridge this weekend, and I couldn't be more excited. I think it's just the spark I need to beat this rut once and for all.
I also finally bought a book I've been hearing so much about, called Return to Love by Marianne Williamson. It's based around A Course in Miracles, and it is aaaaamazing. I don't know why it took me so long to get my hands on it. It's one of those books that I know I'm going to read and re-read a hundred times. It's helping me pull out of my rut right now, so I suppose it came to me at the right time.
I met up with Erin for coffee tonight. We haven't had the chance to really catch up with each other in a couple of months, now. We have seen each other at Bible study, but that's about it. It was nice to just have a couple hours of girl talk. And Jeremy was happy because he got to watch Haunted Collector without me whining about it. LOL
And to all the people who messaged me today to let me know they were thinking about me and praying for me, thank you. I didn't realize yesterday's blog post would hit such a nerve. I really am okay -- this is just another phase of grief I will need to work through. I've got the support system to get through it and I will be okay.