Tuesday, April 27, 2010

No Rest for the Wicked

I tried to relax on Saturday. I swear I did. It was one of the few Saturdays for the next couple of months that wasn't completely booked up, so I swore I was going to relax and not do anything. Yeah, that only lasted until late afternoon. I couldn't handle sitting around! I got some writing done and did a few chores around the house. Then I felt like I had accomplished something and relaxed for the rest of the night.

Sunday Jeremy and I walked over to the book sale at the Unitarian fellowship. We loaded up on children's' books, then he took them home and I stayed for the service. About halfway through, my blood pressure started dropping and I started feeling faint. I left and had Jeremy come get me. As much as I wanted to go to yoga, he insisted I rest for the rest of the day -- and I listened. Yeah, so pretty much I sat around feeling sorry for myself all day Sunday.

I think the theme of this post so far is that I suck at sitting still.

I went for a walk around the lake yesterday. It was such a beautiful day, and the lake was like glass with only the occasional jumping fish to disturb the surface. However, halfway around I regretted taking such a long walk. I'm sure this is perfectly normal during pregnancy, but my body ACHES right now. It feels like all my muscles and ligaments are being pulled apart. I'm going to talk to the doctor about it tomorrow and hopefully get some advice on how to cope. I am worried I'm going to be immobile in another couple of weeks!

Loki went to the vet for her tail cropping surgery on Tuesday. She did so well! We paid a little bit more to have them use a laser, so it will heal better and be less painful. I'm really glad we did that. We picked her up that evening and she was soooo high. She was weaving as we walked out of the vet, and when we got her into the car she just flopped on her side like a fish. It was pathetic... but hilarious! It's been two days now and she doesn't seem to notice her missing tail at all, but she's still really loopy from the drugs we have to give her (anti-inflammatory, antibiotic and painkiller). She sits without pain and walks without balance problems, and she has been such a trooper. I really expected her to be pathetic and pouty, but she is just resting and being such a good girl. Jeremy went out and bought her a new orthopedic bed and you've never seen such a happy dog. Loki has always had a thing about dog beds (or anything she thinks is a dog bed) -- and it's especially cute how much she loves this one. We're just moving it from room to room so she can lie with us.

28 Weeks

Here are pics from week 28! You can see I'm not sticking out a whole lot further than I was 4 weeks ago, but the baby is taking up quite a bit more vertical room. I think she's doing sun salutations half the time, the way she stretches and pushes.

And for reference, weeks 24 and 20, respectively:

Friday, April 23, 2010

Awakening -- Blocked In

I've blocked in the basic shapes for my newest acrylic piece, working title "Awakening". And yes it looks like poo, but I'm posting it here to put pressure on myself to finish it.

Loki's Tail, Rain and Avatar

The vet appointment has been set for Tuesday. Say goodbye to Loki's tail! This is going to be hard on all of us as Loki heals from the surgery. She's just such a sad, mopey dog to begin with. It's going to break my heart. But Jeremy and I both think she'll be happier without a constantly busted tail and emergency runs to the vet -- and you know we'll be happier not having to worry about it, especially with the baby.

It's been raining here for the last few days. We had some snow for about an hour today, but other than that just rain, rain, rain. It's wonderful! It makes everything so green and fresh. I hear the Springs got a big snowstorm today and many schools were closed. After a winter with heavy snow, I was happy to see for once we DIDN'T get hit.

A friend and her boyfriend came up for a visit on Wednesday night. We were planning on going to Conor O'Neill's, but when we walked up to the door there was a sign that they were closed for an event. Nice of them to post that on their website, which I was on TWICE that day. Grr. So we walked two blocks over to The Lazy Dog. Great food, lousy service. The busboy was more helpful than the waitress. But the chocolate mousse made up for it. :p

Jeremy and I curled up on the couch with dinner and a movie last night. He bought Avatar on BlueRay. We had seen it in the theater and just loved it. BlueRay didn't let us down -- it was just as awesome the second time. However, as much as I love that movie, it is still extremely painful for me to watch. It's such a good example of human nature, and a stark reminder of what so many cultures suffered throughout history, it hurts my heart.

Wednesday, April 21, 2010

Eat, Pray, Love Movie

I am sooooo excited about this movie! This is one of my all-time favorite books, and the author is a personal hero.

Babysitting and Husband Insanity

I babysat Sophie last night while Della and Mike went to the Avalanche/Sharks game. Sophie is such a good kid, and very determined. She knows what she wants, and she'll tell you. I won't lie -- it was hard keeping up with a 2-yr-old in my condition. Just getting up and down from the floor while we were coloring, holding her while I was cooking macaroni (she HAD to watch), and picking her up to put her to bed used all of my dwindling strength. But hey, good practice, right?

So I was gone all night last night, and got home about midnight... and couldn't believe what I found. Jeremy had knocked out a week's worth of housework. He had gone to the grocery, cleaned the litterbox, replaced the screen on the studio window, moved the rest of the bookshelves from the baby's room (my former office) down to the studio, put all the books back on the shelves in the exact order I had them, moved a bookshelf from the living room to the studio, and found a new place for the cat's climbing tree. Jeremy has a tendency to get bored while I'm gone and start doing things around the house to get a big reaction out of me when I return -- it's one of the things I adore about him -- but last night he took it to a whole new level. Needless to say, I'm crazy about my husband right now. LOL

Tuesday, April 20, 2010

Time Flies

Where did the last week go? I can't believe it's been that long since I've blogged!

Jeremy's parents came up for a visit last Thursday. It was such a nice treat! We went out to The Kasbah for dinner. It was still amazingly good food... but I have to say the couscous was a little on the salty side this time. Afterward we came back to the house and Janet and I looked through pictures from the cruise while David and Jeremy talked business. I can't give a whole lot of detail here about what Jeremy is up to -- not until it's all off the ground -- but it's pretty exciting. I love seeing my husband so jazzed about what he's doing, and the potential of it all is pretty spectacular. I'd like to think that in a few years we won't be living paycheck to paycheck anymore.

My parents came up for a visit on Saturday to help me figure out what to do with our yard. The owners of this house were insane gardeners. I mean, you could feed a family of 5 for life with what they were growing here. But I'm not a gardener, and I've got a baby on the way, so I needed to plan out a reasonable way to manage the yard. I know NOTHING about gardening, so I called in the experts. We walked around the yard, front and back, and it looks like mainly it's going to be cleaning up the dead stuff (they didn't do that last fall before we moved in, and by the time we moved in the snow had started) and putting weed killer down. There are enough plants (veggies, fruit, herbs) re-growing this year that I won't have to plant anything else. And frankly, what is already there is more than I can manage! I'll be happy if I can just keep the weeds at bay. The front yard is already looking pretty cool. The very front is xeriscaped, the middle of the front yard is all bushes, and the part closest to the house is covered in lavender and climbing plants (ivy, morning glory-type flowers, etc.). We had a bunch of tulips pop up through the ivy, too, which has been a welcome splash of color. The back yard... well, I'm trying to keep it from becoming a jungle.

While my parents and I were planning the yard, Jeremy took Loki to the vet. Again. She busted open her tail. Again. This time it got infected. I won't go into the financial details of this because it might tempt me to drive her out to a farm and leave her. But this vet is strongly recommending cropping her tail. We had been considering it because it has been such a health problem for her, and we are worried about it being a danger to the baby (You ever been smacked by a pit bull's tail? Not fun.) -- but everything we had found online and at various vets led us to believe it was too late in her life to do this. One vet said it would be like losing a limb to her. So we put that idea out of our heads -- until this weekend. This vet completely disagreed with the losing a limb theory, and insisted as long as we leave a few inches she will be just fine. So with the support of this vet, and a quote on the way, Loki might be getting her tail cropped soon.

When Jeremy returned from the vet, we all went out to Si Senor for lunch. That place has never let us down, food- and service-wise. Their chile rellenos are to die for! After lunch my mom popped over to Della's to work with her on planning the baby shower. When she came back, she was in high spirits. It sounds like it's going to be a fun time!

Saturday night while Jeremy and I were out and about running errands (I picked up my new printer which I'm absolutely in love with!), we discovered a local Blockbuster with a going-out-of-business sale happening. There wasn't a whole lot left, but Jeremy picked up 15 new horror movies for $1/each and we also got a file cabinet from them for $10. Can't beat that deal!

Sunday I walked over to the Unitarian fellowship for the Sunday service. The weather was so amazing! I am just loving this spring. The UUF was having a book sale out on the front lawn, so I loaded up with as many as my arms could hold. LOL. After church it was off to prenatal yoga. Nothing works out the kinks in a pregnant body like prenatal yoga. Aaahhhh. Sadly, Sunday night and Monday I felt like crud. I was just exhausted. It felt like first trimester fatigue all over again. I was really worried that my hormones had shifted again and I would go back to that fatigue on a regular basis -- but today I feel great, so now I'm hoping it was just a fluke!

Wednesday, April 14, 2010

Sick Day and Spoiled

I did something really unusual yesterday. I took an entire day off of work because I was sick. See, when you work from home, sick days are nearly impossible to take. When you can work in bed, there is very little excuse to call in. But yesterday I hit the proverbial wall. This cold came back for a second round on Monday, and by Tuesday I had a migraine on top of it. Being pregnant, I can't take anything to alleviate the pain, so I couldn't work. Period. I just plain couldn't work. I told my boss I was taking the day off, and curled up in bed with a rice-and-lavender-filled eye mask and slept (i.e. tossed and turned) until the pain was bearable enough to open my eyes. Then of course I checked my work email. Hahaha. But I only spent maybe a total of 45 minutes on work that day -- so I still count it as a "full" sick day.

Anyway, it's a stark reminder of how difficult it is for me to unplug from the world. It's less a feeling of needing to be involved as it is anxiety that something will happen while I'm gone and I'll have to deal with the fallout when I return. Whether it's work stuff while I'm sick, or personal emails while I'm on vacation, I have such anxiety when I am forced to disconnect. I guess I am the poster child for the stress cases of the world.

I just got done practicing piano. My hands actually hurt. That's the first time that's happened, though I know I give my fingers a workout during every practice. Maybe I pushed it harder than usual tonight -- or maybe this is yet another fun side effect of pregnancy. The good news is that my piano playing is steadily improving. I still can't read music as quickly as I'd like, but sheet music is becoming more familiar.

I've decided I've become spoiled having Jeremy home and I don't want him to go away again. I never thought I'd be okay having a husband home all the time... but I guess I got used to it. He's such a huge help around here, running errands, getting groceries, taking care of housework, even cooking sometimes. Granted, I have to ask him to do most things -- but he does them. It's a huge load off of my shoulders not to have to bother with most of that stuff after work. The time for him to go back to work is getting near, and I know it's going to be a hard transition for me. Especially since I'm getting bigger by the day. Just getting laundry out of the washer has become a challenge -- not because I'm huge yet, but because my muscles are all strained and softening. I always thought the uncomfortable part of pregnancy came after you'd gotten all big. Boy was I wrong! And I get sooo frustrated when I have to ask Jeremy to do something that I feel I should be able to do myself. He never makes me feel bad about it, in fact I think he really likes being needed so much, but I hate feeling so helpless.

Sunday, April 11, 2010

Busy Weekend

This weekend was gone in a blur, as always. I wrapped up work early enough on Friday to spend some time soaking in the sun in the back yard. I got my script writing done, read a little Ann Lammott, and tried to come up with some ideas for the garden back there.

Saturday Drew came up from Lone Tree for a visit. We all went to the farmers market in Boulder. It was packed, and there wasn't a lot of produce available yet -- but still, the market was even larger than last year and there were plenty of things we wanted to buy. We didn't have the money this weekend, but next weekend we will, and we're going back for some salsa, spicy mustard, gluten-free lemon poppyseed bread, local organic meat, and carrot coconut soup. Mmmmm.

After the market, we walked down Pearl Street on the way back to the car and stopped in the Into the Wind toy store. That place is absolute heaven -- even for an adult! All the stuff I used to love as a kid is still sold there. I especially have fond memories of the science kits. You know, I always thought I would be a scientist in some way, shape or form. Sadly, early in my college career I realized I suck at it! I have a high level of respect and admiration for scientists now.

Before leaving Boulder, we stopped at Meininger's. I wanted to show Drew what art supply heaven was like. LOL. He got some Golden brand silver paint for one of his works-in-progress, and Jeremy and I drooled over some red clay that we want to get when we have a bit of money to waste. Our final stop was Best Buy. I had to get a new printer to replace my HP MFP -- the second one in a row that was crap to begin with, and then got to be unusable after 2 years. I may work for the company, but I don't always have luck with their products. This time I got a Canon MFP. They were having a sale on a printer/paper/ink bundle, and I had some Reward Zone certificates to spend, so it ended up being a really good deal.

Of course, since Drew hadn't been there before, Jeremy and I had to take him to the Huckleberry for lunch. He said it was the best breakfast burrito he'd ever had. You just can't go wrong with the Huckleberry, I tell you! After lunch we all had bad food coma, so we came back to the house and vegged out to watch Chipmunks, The Squeakuel.

I got most of my office moved downstairs this weekend. So tomorrow will be the first day working in my new location. I will miss being able to watch the world go by in the front of the house... but the steady north light in the back of the house will be nice too. And I'll get to watch the garden grow this summer!

After three weekends away (2 for the cruise and one for Easter), I finally got to go back to my prenatal yoga class today. I really wish that class were more than once a week. I could easily do it daily! My teacher is planning on trying to start a Mommy and Baby yoga class at the rec center soon, too, which I am SO excited about.

This cold that I got from Jeremy earlier this week kicked in for a second round today, so I rested a bit after yoga. But I couldn't let this gorgeous weather go to waste, so Jeremy and I walked over to Starbucks for a treat once I was feeling up to it. When we got back, we got the sprinklers working in the front yard. The owners of the house have the front mostly xeriscaped, and it is set up with a great sprinkler/drip system. It's already starting to get green -- I can't wait to see what it looks like in a few weeks!

Friday, April 09, 2010

Thoughts on Outlets and Stimulation

I had a conversation with my piano teacher (who is one of the coolest women ever, just so you know) today about keeping yourself busy. We both tend to be the types of people that need to have lots of outlets, and not be alone for extended periods of time. Don't get me wrong -- I like my alone time, and I need peace and quiet on a regular basis. But leave me alone for a week and I will crawl into a hole and die. I need external stimulation. Maybe that's why I'm addicted to blogging, social networking, etc. -- it's instantaneous, pervasive "human" contact. I know that's also why I have so many hobbies/interests. I need to keep myself occupied for my own health. It's not a negative thing, it's just the way I am. It's something I know about myself and have learned to work with.

That got me thinking about this baby. For the better part of my adult life I was terrified of having children. I wanted children, but I was terrified by the thought that I would lose my independence and freedom. Now that the time has come to face those fears, I can't help but wonder if having a child will actually help me. When she's born, there will always be someone there with me, constant stimulation, and constant motivation to find outlets for the both of us. Maybe having this baby won't be the end of my freedom so much as it will be the beginning of the most active, productive time of my life.

Look at this adorable bib + burpcloth our landlord just brought by!

Thursday, April 08, 2010

In the Pink

It took a lot of guts to get this done for the first time last year. I keep trying to get up the guts to do another color, but I think my guts are worn out.


I'm in my 25th week of pregnancy this week, and it's the second week of these AWESOME HORMONES. I keep wanting to say something on Facebook about it, but then I think "Do my coworkers want to hear about my hormones? Probably not." Anyway, I have ENERGY. STEADY ENERGY. Even after a night of waking up several times (thank you Baby Girl for bouncing on my bladder), I feel great in the morning and the energy keeps up throughout the day. My usual afternoon slumps are nearly nonexistent. I wish I could feel like this all the time!

I usually try to look at the upside of things... but in this instance I keep thinking this won't last. I know eventually my hormones will shift again, or my body will get strained by the growing baby, and this energy will falter. So right now I am trying to take advantage of every day I feel like this. In other words, if you have noticed my posts are unusually scatterbrained, it's because I'm just dumping all of my energy onto the page. I feel like if I keep a record of these good feelings, when they disappear, the memory of them will be enough to get me off my duff. I realize I'm a weirdo.

Tuesday, April 06, 2010

Easter, Thrashing and a Chicken Dog

Jeremy and I went to my parents' house for Easter this year. We realized that this would probably be the last holiday we spent with one family -- after the baby is born I'm sure we're going to be doing dual holidays as long as we live close enough.

My family always puts out a ton of appetizers before a holiday dinner. And then a big selection of desserts, drinks and coffee after. So really it's like eating three huge meals in a matter of hours. LOL. We all bring something to share. This time Drew made crabcakes, Chad brought yummy Great Harvest bread, I made enchiladas and my mom made ham, greenbeans and potatoes. We watched 2012 and Sherlock Holmes and just hung out, ate and talked all day. It was nice and laid back -- just what I needed.

The baby continues to be very active. She's making bigger and bigger movements every week. This week I swear she was practicing karate moves in my belly -- it feels like she's thrashing! And yet her heart rate continues to be on the lower end of the healthy scale. I wonder if that means she'll have a low-stress personality like Jeremy, but my high motivation. That would be an awesome combination. I guess we'll see soon enough!

Jeremy has had a sinus infection (bordering on a cold) since we got back from the cruise. And the twins were sick on Saturday too. Amazingly enough I didn't catch what was going around... until this morning. At 6am, Loki jumped on the bed because she was freaked out by the thunderstorm outside, and after I got done having a panic attack and getting her off the bed I realized my throat was scratchy and my shoulderblades ached. Those are surefire signs I'm fighting a cold. I took it as easy as I could today, so I'm hoping I can fight this off before it hits too hard. Wish me luck.

Final thought for the night -- writing a screenplay is easy. Writing a GOOD screenplay is not so easy. LOL. I've got 22 pages written of my screenplay-in-progress, working title: Snowmen. In order to complete the Script Frenzy challenge, I need to complete 100 pages by April 30. I am confident I can hit the page count. However it's going to take a lot more work to shape this thing up into something usable. I'm actually thinking of rewriting it as a novel later on...

Saturday, April 03, 2010

Playing with Red + Yellow + a 1-inch Brush

Arguments, Alumni and Pink Streaks

This week was hectic, getting back into the swing of work after being gone for a week. But it wasn't as bad as I had anticipated. I was able to catch up pretty quickly, actually. I think the most stressful part was having to argue with a couple of people. In my line of work, I'm on my own a lot -- and I'm very good at what I do. Numbers don't lie. So for the most part, people don't want to mess with the process, nor do they want to add work to their plates by engaging me on projects. I do encourage people to send promotional material my way, though -- it makes my job easier when I don't have to go hunting for projects. But every so often, someone will get a bug up their butt and contact me to do something that I know will be a big fat waste of company resources. And then I have to make the case for why I think it's a bad idea. Some people really don't like this and we end up going back and forth until either I give in and say "Fine, I'll do it" (with a plan in mind to make sure they see the minuscule click and revenue numbers), or they see that I know what the heck I'm talking about and agree to do something that will actually work for our customers. This week was full of those types of arguments. Not sure why. But Friday couldn't come fast enough.

I dragged Jeremy to a CU alumni function on Wednesday. I just didn't want to go by myself since I didn't know anyone there. He was a good sport about it because there was free food and drink. Hahaha! I got to meet the chancellor and hear him speak about some things going on at CU (new art gallery opening in September!!!), and Jeremy found a new beer he liked (Twisted Pine Pearl Street Porter). So we both left happy. We both love downtown Boulder, so it was nice having an excuse to go there for a bit. And now I know a great wine bar to go to when I'm not pregnant anymore!

I have been thinking lately that I'm so glad I discovered art a few years ago. It has really helped balance out my writing life. When I am fighting one, I am falling into the other. Like right now I am focusing a lot on Script Frenzy (88 pages to go before April 30!), and reeeeally fighting my art. I am being pulled to paint, but can't drag myself to the canvas. I keep doing these little sketches and planning out the pieces that I want to do -- but I have yet to crack open a tube of paint. I swear tonight I'm at least going to set up my easel. And if I really push myself, maybe I will start laying down the background color for my next piece.

We went down to Colorado Springs today. I had a hair appointment (I got my pink streaks back and had Eric add in some lowlights since I noticed my hair was getting really monotone), and Selena had her 8th birthday party this afternoon. Jennifer's family moved in to our old house when we moved to Lafayette, and they made a lot of changes to it. This was the first time I had seen it. It looks great! New carpet, tile in the dining room and downstairs bathroom, and new paint throughout. It makes me wish we could have done that while we lived there! Anyway, Selena's birthday party was fun. She and her cousin Abrianna put on a little play for us. LOL. And of course the twins were there, so guess how Jeremy and I spent most of our time. Baby David kept grabbing my hair and shaking it in his fist, then pulling my face toward him to eat my nose.

And my final note for tonight: Easter candy is evil and should be banned. Ssssugar high!

Quick Colored Pencil Sketch of Idea for Acrylic Painting

Friday, April 02, 2010

Energy and Script Frenzy

My energy has been off the charts this week. I think it's a combination of the rest I got on the cruise last week (naps in the sun are soooo refreshing) and a change in hormones. But whatever is causing it, I hope it keeps up! I've felt ready to take over the world this week! No afternoon slumps, no feeling like I'm going to pass out on the couch after work -- it's just been a steady, positive energy. If only I could always feel this way...

It's good timing, too, because Script Frenzy started yesterday. The challenge is to write a 100-page script in one month. I've never written a script before, so the format is very new to me. That seems to be the one thing that hangs me up -- not knowing how to format certain things. Like how to denote a scene that happened in the past, or character gestures. I have to stop and look up the protocol sometimes. But as I go, I'm sure I will get more and more comfortable with the format and spend more time writing and less time researching. Anyway, the working title of my script is Snowmen, and I've got 6 pages done so far.

24-Wk Appointment

I had my 24-wk prenatal appointment this morning. Everything is right on track. I've gained 16lbs and my belly is measuring 24cm.

Baby kicked the doppler several times when the nurse was listening for the heartbeat. LOL